The day of the treatment is unusual to say the least. It tires me out and pumps me up at the same time...I know I only have a few days before the process begins again so I feel a sense of urgency. I try to eat every thing I can and anything that I know I won't be able to eat n a few days. I can drink wine (and will) until Friday and then I have to put it away for a week or two...that's where the beer comes in...it's a good substitute and doesn't burn my mouth....but I don't particularly like beer...it takes about 6 beers to get you where one glass of wine gets you and you have to pee every 5 minutes! I've mentioned in previous posts that my experience has changed me......for the better I think! maybe it was/is the wake up call I've needed for a long time. I've posted a picture of my boat, The Empress Wu. Empress Wu was the first and perhaps the only female Empress of China and she slept and murdered her way to get there.....maybe she should be my mistress...I'm seriously considering moving her to the coast Charleston or Wilmington and eventually living on her for a while at least....have to keep the health thing in mind of course but since the SC School of Medicine is in Charleston I think I'll be OK. I'm an ocean sailor and this lake is killing me. I watched a show on the big bang theory.....I wrote about that in a journal one time. I have some questions. They say the universe was the size of a pea and that it exploded in to a giant piece of space.......in 3/4 of a second it was the size of earth in a minute the size of our solar system...everything is moving out........question...where was it the size of a pea? What was out beyond the pea? What did it expand into? Well we are still moving and each star gives off particles...Earth is a particle but it is a particle that landed in just the right orbit to sustain life........I think it is like a bungee cord and once it expands it will contract back to a pea and then do it all over again.........can you say reincarnation? Thanks for the Spiritual thoughts (you know who you are) and Prayers it means more that you know and it has worked as well as any of the drugs. Thank you, B.