Update # 9.....Kinda like the Beatles

The news is good....sorta. My PSA is down 14 points to 81...I guess I was hoping for better because it dropped 42 points last time. The Doc says Hey, it's going down and you're tolerating the drugs very well, amazingly well....Let's stay the course! So much for having the summer off. I'm not complaining.....(of course I am)....just hoped to get off this regime...for a while anyway. So much for the pity party.......I'm in the chemo room and as I've said before all I have to do is look around and see others and their personal battles and I realize I'm in a better spot than most of my reluctant companions. My God!!!!!......There is a woman across the hall from me that looks exactly like an old friend.....problem is the old friend is dead.....a visit from a dead friend can be kinda spooky when you are in the chemo room! Or maybe she was there to protect me? For someone who was not a foodaholic it sure is a big part of my current life. The problem is you have a memory of how something tastes and it will make your mouth water but once you taste it.....it taste like.....well, you know the word. Fast Foods seems to lure me...I'll drive through and always commit to eating at least half......that's all I ususally do eat but......."I'm going to save the other half just in case!" After about 2 days in the hot car things get kinda ripe....need to remember to take my leftovers out, don't know what I'm thinking........I don't eat leftovers from Mortons much less a cheeseburger from Wendys. The Doc reduced the amount of my chemo drug because of the numbness in my finger tips and foot pain. I'm pissed..it isn't that bad and will that mean more treatments? Throughout the process the Doc has always asked about my hands and feet....are my hands numb? Well it's starting to happen but very minimal....drop things more than I used to.....at times during the cyle the balls of both feet feel like a piece of rebar (an iron rod) is under my shoe. If you know me you know I've always had a little equilibrium issues.....so much time on a boat I guess....the more I drink the more it seems to increase :>)....anyway last weekend I was waiting for a friend outside a nice little restaurant and I made a move and staggered...people stared......"He's drunk".....anxious to prove them wrong I decided to walk down the sidewalk to another entrance.....walked right into a bush!!!......so it goes. Everyone is slapping me on the back and saying you're beating it........right now I'm winning......I once saw an NFL rookie have his big chance in his premiere game....the ball landed right in his lap and he had a chance to run the ball back for a touchdown. As he crossed the goal line he threw the ball up in celebration.......it was shown on the replay (for the challenge)that he had thrown the ball away prior to crossing the goal line........I'm not going to do that........I'm still treating this as the fight of my life...so far...and intend to finish and win.....hopefully for good! Stay tuned! As always, thanks for the Prayers and Spiritual energy, I'm truly blessed. B.