Someone once said that in Football a tie game is like kissing your sister! My PSA levels stayed the same this month…soooo…. I’m in here “getting’ the Goods” for the seventeenth time…….I would rather kiss my sister.
The Food Channel is my friend…..the visual often sparks my appetite!
I’ve mentioned in the past that I have discovered the huge difference in hunger and appetite…. Hell….I’ve been hungry since January! But getting myself to want to eat is and always has been the challenge.
I guess it’s a good thing that I’ve never been one to eat just for pleasure. I eat so I’m not hungry. I enjoy the ambiance of a good meal at home or out but maybe not as much as most.,,,,,Good thing…..‘cause stuffing pieces of shrimp down the back of my throat with a toothpick like a seal might put a damper on a nice candle lit dinner!
A good friend of mine used to say “there’s the plan…and then there's what happens”.
On December 8th I will have been in this process for one year (you’ll never hear me call it an ordeal or some other negative term…I don’t want to give it that much respect. It’s either an experience or process). I never would have guessed I would still be in the process but the bright side is that I’m still in the same process….many of the patients I encounter in the chemo room have been on 3 or 4 different cocktails of drugs…searching for one that works…my original drug is working so far and I’m setting records with my tolerance. The prayers and energy are working.
I used to say and,, at the time mean, “That it sucks that it is me…..but it is”….I obviously wish things were different but through the experience I have found a better me, a more real me…one that I like better than the one that I was before December 8, 2009. I have also found and, in some cases reconnected, to so many people that have enhanced my life. So I guess it does still suck to have to endure the cancer and its’ treatment…but there is a very rewarding and positive side to all this as well….and of course it is MY reality and destiny, so what else can I do but fight and fight to win!
The chemo room was bustling today….I saw several people come in with their oxygen tanks….really feel sorry for them.
I talked to a patient today that has been in chemo for 3 years!
I’m not doing this for 3 years! Of course I’m the guy that wasn’t going past 6 treatments. But I intend to try alternatives…natural or supernatural either way.
Thank you so much for the Spiritual energy and Prayers. Please keep it coming…the fight is not over yet! Bob
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