Update # 31

It’s somewhat hard to say where I am in the process….other than “Here!”.

I began the new drug, ZITIGA, on Saturday, the 16th. So far I’ve had no new appendages appear nor have I lost any so….so far so good. As luck would have it…the drug actually invigorates me a little….Well that would be different, a cancer drug that gives you energy! Scary! ….Makes me think….What if it isn’t working? That would suck!

I Like to consider myself optimistic…certainly not pessimistic. But I’m also a realist. If this new drug works (and I’m banking on it) then great! If not I go back on intravenous chemo….something I really, really don’t want to do….but will if I have to.

These last few months since I’ve had chemo have been pretty good….Still lot’s of bone pain, fatigue and eating challenges but I’ve gotten used to that…and then there’s Tylenol. It just takes longer to get anything done. As I said, if the drug works and my side effects are no more than what I have now…I can live with that…..I think. Nothing is normal anymore…..But thankfully and blissfully…..I don’t remember normal.

I stumped my toe big time the other day…and I waited that split second for the inevitable pain to travel up to my brain……it never did….and I realized…my toes are numb!….and they may have been numb for a while, who knew!..…that would explain why I stumble as much as I do (that and the wine). It’s amazing how little things like that can affect you….My finger tips have been numb for 2 years…which is why it takes 3 to 4 times in my pocket to find my keys…..my eye lashes fell out last year and believe me you need your eye lashes. All kinds of crap fly’s into my eyes and if someone or a restaurant decides to put their ceiling fan on JET ENGINE!.....then I can’t even open my eyes!

I met with the oral surgeon last week regarding the hole in my mouth. I was telling him the story about the drug and that now I had a new hole to my nose and yadda yadda. He looked in my mouth…all lit up…..and.... finally....he reached up and pinched both my nostrils….and yelled “blow through your nose” which I did….. and he said “Yep! There it is!” Surgery is scheduled for August!

Is it just me?…every time I look at Treasury Secretary Timothy Geithner I think of a…a....Keebler Elf!

Thank you for the Prayers and Spiritual Energy...This is yet another phase....and as I've said before...Same war, different sword!  B.