UPDATE # 33

I hope you read my last post but if you didn’t…..my PSA dropped about 30 points under the new drug! I’m kicking ass!    And so glad that football is back!

My new front burner challenge is my mouth. I lost another molar over the weekend…just fell out like the rest. I put it under my pillow and left the tooth fairy a note to please leave me $125,000 dollars in small bills…..He didn’t…..Damn!

This has really become my “jaw” issue..…which I think is a result of the clinical trial drug I was given in addition to the chemo. I had 17 intravenous treatments of the trial drug and I think it helped but now I’m possibly looking at major surgery….or not. It’s not as gloomy as it sounds I have less aggressive alternatives………I just want to get the Damn hole plugged up…..every once in a while I still inadvertently whistle when I talk!.........it attracts birds.

I hate sounding like a scratched record but my struggles with eating haven’t gotten that much better…the same pattern…I feel the hunger, my stomach may even growl, I’ll get lightheaded but the thought of any type of food, at home or dining out, just makes me want to throw up!

What really pisses me off is that I have to spend so much time, thought and energy into one of the essentials of life!

Maybe this is just hangover from the chemo or it may be the result of the new drug Zytiga. Either way I’ll continue to make it work…..my weight is steady at 178-179, a good weight for me. I’m no where near putting pieces of shrimp or peanut butter down the back of my mouth with a tooth pick like last year….that’s certainly a good thing! Hey, I know a few of you have been on and then off of chemo….is this normal? E-mail me.

Have you ever wondered if all the eggs in a carton come from the same chicken? ……You probably haven’t…..and I shouldn’t have either…..Oh Well!  

There have been some positive things going on “Here” lately as well. The first effects of the new drug to my PSA being one……and....Erma Bombeck wrote a very funny book titled Jelly Side Down. The thought being that if you drop a piece of bread with Jelly on it…….if you’re lucky, it will land Jelly side up. Less clean up….but I still wouldn’t eat it.

My point is that I’ve experienced some Jelly side up events lately…...….so I’m Good!!

Do you think our Fears are Monsters in the form of Reality..…or Reality in the form of Monsters?    And.....they do too live under the bed.…it’s just that when you’re 5…..they’re too small to see.


The Prayers and Spiritual Energy are Working! Thank you, Bob