The New Normal

I am amazed at how well I feel 13 days after treatment.....I feel great!.....this 5 minutes in time! It's all relative but not bad! I have said it tongue in cheek before but I really do think my body is taking over and contributing to the fight! I still have some Thrush but I also have the "Magic Mouthwash"........it's nasty. They say it tastes like Strawberry.............Strawberry my ass....it's red OK; other than that there is nothing Strawberry about it!...................I have heard from several folks who have had this wonderful elixir and they all say the same thing..........it's bad!!!!!!!...........But......it works. I was in good shape and excellent health when I started this, which I'm sure has helped.......A friend, who is a Urologist, said most of the time they give chemo to these old guys that don't stand a chance any way. I guess I was lucky in that I had the right genes. I've always been pretty slim and trim but it wasn't because of anything I did....it just happened that way. People used to say "well you must work out!!"...I would always say "Yeah well.....I run".....I don't run....but it made a guy that butters every thing!!! and eats 2 cheeseburgers a day for lunch feel better. "He runs!". Since the treatment started I have lost 14 pounds...hell I wanted to lose 10 anyway! but I wanted to lose it in my gut.....I never had much of a gut until I started taking the meds.....and I still have a little bit of one so I kept wondering where did the 14 pounds come from? I don't have a full length mirror at my place.........so I'm at my Sons' house...........get out of their shower.....and my ass was gone!!!!!! I just turned 60.........I have plenty of time.............. and I guess the question is "How old would you be..................If you didn't know how old you were?"....... I'd be 52. I can't get over the TV. Every day Discovery ID has a crime or Dateline kind of show....non stop 24 hours a day! Four out of five of the shows tell the story of spouses killing each other......and then getting caught for it!!!!!!!!........If you're married........it makes you want to sleep with some type of weapon under your pillow.............damn!!!! A few people have said I should write a book....well I am and have been. It started out as a chronicle or Journal for my children and grandchildren because as optimistic as I may be...I probably won't be around when they are adults so I wanted them to know who I was....and it has evolved. It is written in the same style as these blogs.......I don't know any other way.....They say everyone has a book in them....well just tell your life story!!!! We all have had interesting lives!!!! By the way.....when it comes to parts about past loves and relationships.....there is nothing......and if there is it will be brief.........whew!!!!!!!! Thank you for the Prayers and Spiritual Energy!!!!!! It has helped me so much with this!!! I will be in touch! B.