Could the End be Near?

Is your favorite food the food you don’t think you can live with out? Because I don’t know if Peanut Butter would be my last meal but I have relied on it so many times in my life. When I was a senior in high school and living “alone” at 17, I would buy peanut butter, jelly and bread and that was it morning noon and night. Hint: As good as it looks…from an economical stand point the peanut butter already mixed with jelly is a bad idea, you always end up eating all the jelly way before the peanut butter is gone. Some weeks I did the same thing with bologna…I would put the bologna on one piece of bread and a slice of cheese on the other for breakfast…eat out for lunch and have a bologna sandwich with lettuce, bread and chips for dinner……every day! No wonder I never acquired a taste for food. During chemo though, peanut butter has really come through for me…….I take a pretzel rod and dip it in the peanut butter and then put it in the back of my mouth past the yucky stuff on my tongue…….I get a sense of taste and it’s protein baby!!!!!!.........whew! I was getting burned out on shrimp! Today, someone referred to it as eating like a seal.....I guess so..... thanks for the visual! Today is Tuesday which means I start a 7 day countdown till I have treatment again. I have to record certain things for the clinical trial in the 7 days prior so it lets’ me know early that the time is coming around again….Bring it on!!!........one more down!!!!!!....I think the 7 treatments before have gone by pretty fast……maybe faster for me than for you because you don’t think about it everyday, interesting………..how fast is time? Does time move faster sometimes and slower other times? I heard the quote once that “time was natures’ way of keeping everything from happening at once!” Has it ever occurred to you that if you were reincarnated you could be born in the past instead of the future? I think I’m Buddhist or need to be….reading and from what I know it seems to be the closest to what I truly believe. Sorry, I've gotten a little off track :>) It is possible that if my PSA has gone down enough from this last treatment that the one coming up will be my last ....for a while anyway....Yeaa! I have bone and CT scans tomorrow and that is the real tell of the tape....how much has this stuff receded??? I'll let you know. B.