Update # 14, Good News Again

The news is good! My PSA dropped 5.1 points to 33.9. (91% from where I was). I had hoped for more but any move downward is good. If the pattern stays somewhat consistent then yesterday’s treatment will be another splurge! 20 points and I’m within firing range of “0”! When I said that the Doc put hand on my shoulder (Rare for him, I think) and chuckled.

When the Doc came in the room we didn’t know the PSA, the lab was closed Monday for the Holiday (TMI)…..Anyway, he basically said as long as you can continue to tolerate the drug let’s (in unison now) “Stay the course”! He knows I'm a sailor!

He asked about my feet and hands…not pretty but fine. He asked about the foot pain I’ve had and I told him it hurts every day but 2 Tylenol 3 times a day and I’m good to go! He looked at the nurse and said “See every time I come up with an excuse to stop the chemo he has a solution………I told him “I’m putting my money on me to win this race”!…...Chuckle all you want!

I’ve mentioned the chemo treatment room and how funny and more often how scary it can be.

One area of the process I have neglected is the main waiting room.

When I get to the Doctors’ office for treatment I don’t usually spend much time in the waiting room but there are unknown stories to everyone in there. If they are sitting in an Oncology waiting room they have been referred…for reason.

You can tell the veterans who are just there for treatment versus the husband, Father, brother, boyfriend, Mother, wife, sister, girlfriend, who are there to hear the news……..they hang on to each other and have a look of concern that I know they wish they could hide but just can’t! ..............I find myself aching for them the most because at this point it is a black hole of mystery, life or death, chemo or not and.......just plain scared to death!

I’ve unhappily (because I’ve been here so damn long they all know my name!) observed couples leaving the office for the first time after they have gotten the “News” however dire it may be.

If the female is crying I assume it is her  diagnosis……haven’t seen any men leaving crying……although they should have been…...especially if it is for her......there are so many out there that are so much worse than me.....some don't have the fight any more......Ya gotta have that fire in the belly to win! 

"It's easier to adjust the sails than to change the wind"

Please keep the Prayers and Spiritual Energy coming I do feel it is the power of my success so far and I appreciate it more than I can express!  B.