It’s the Wednesday after NADIR weekend and I’m…….Good!,.....My taste is coming back….it goes from being horrid on Friday, to no taste, to some taste, as now, to new normal taste!.......usually that’s the last week of the cycle.
As I said in my last Post…..I did not take the shot of Neupgen (an aid in white blood cell production) as I have the last three times but I did go in for labs on Tuesday. The Docs office called yesterday afternoon in a panic saying my white cell count was 1.01 and I needed to come in right away and get the shot…..I said, No!....I said, I told the Doc I was not going to take the shot because of the side effects and she said the Doc is the one that said to call you…..I said, No!.....Ya know they didn’t even do lab work after NADIR weekend the 1st 17 times I took the chemo and I didn't get this shot that has made me feel like a pile of melted wax on the sofa each of the three times I've gotten it.....I know my body and I’m sticking to my guns!...the nurse seemed to be trying to sell me on getting the shot like she was going to earn a commission or something! No!
Speaking of sticking…..I guess in retrospect if I had known how many times I was going to get stuck by a needle I would have considered a port….it’s a dedicated vein with an insert point that stays in all the time…..no more sticking!.....Not just for this reason…..but somehow I just didn’t think that having a medical appliance hanging from my chest would be a look I wanted to have on the beach……I may be wrong but……Naw!
Let me tell you “sticking” (of needles/IVs) is an art! Some of the nurses in the chemo room have reputations as a “Good Stick” and then there are a few, that I’ve had experience with, that I’ve asked not to be turned over to.…cause I’ve got the scars to prove why!....my arms look like a heroin addict with an attitude!
Unless my PSA makes a significant drop……or even if it does…..my guess is that the Doc is going to take me off the Taxotere and put me on the new oral drug Abiraterone or commercially Zytiga…….sounds like a sex drug!.........It’s taken orally and has much fewer side effects….I’m all into less side effects.
This treatment changes so many subtle aspects of your life….like, shaving.…my beard used to be so dark and tough! When I was younger my college roommate and I decided one semester to grow beards……he was blond…he looked like a Viking…..I looked like a criminal!
Now my beard is like fluff and I can get the cheapest razors at the store and they do just fine!
Ya know, I don’t know what’s going to happen to me…..or when…..but I know that either way I’m going to be alright…..The Docs are keeping me alive and giving me time as I await the cure……and remember.....Time is Nature’s way of keeping everything from happening at once!
I was standing in line at a local club and a very cute woman walked up…..”Wow!” I said to her “In your dreams” she said to me…….….”In my dreams….you’d be thinner!”....I said to her……..Gotcha!
Keep the Spiritual Energy and Prayers coming……it’s felt!.....and I’m going to be fine!.....I’ll out live all of you! B.
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