Well the news could be better. My PSA went up 11 points to 92. The Doc didn't make a big deal of it he said it could be a normal fluctuation and lets see what it is next time...if it goes up again I go off the Taxotere and on to a new oral drug that has just been approved...if that doesn't work I go to a newer form of chemo similar to Taxotere. This is not what I wanted, to be bouncing around from drug to drug to see what works but then none of this is what I wanted. I guess all I can do is play the cards I was dealt and hope for the best....I'm a pretty good card player and I still have a few arrows (Aces) in my quiver!
Since I started back on the full treatment (3 times ago) I have gone in on the Tuesday after my NADIR weekend for a white blood count and a shot of Neupgen, a drug used to stimulate the production of white blood cells. During my first treatments I was never given the drug.
Well each Wednesday after that shot I was on my back from a lack of energy. I had rolling bone pains up and down my ribs. I called the Doc’s nurse and she said other than the bone pain she had never heard of that happening before......I checked and she’s right.....feeling like melted wax wasn’t listed on Web MD as a side effect.
I was sure the Doc and I were going to have a fight! I told him I’m not going to take the shot this time and if I’m wrong….well my bad! I know my body and 3 time’s the charm!! It’s what I call Body Physics (maybe I could do an infommercial on that?). He was actually OK with it.
I’ve always been a fan of Physics! It’s the only set of rules we can pretty much count on….of course Albert Einstein was able to prove that at least some of the rules were wrong…….Anyway, I mentioned Body Physics I also believe in Life Physics. Life Physics is the way your life plays out on a regular basis if you're old enough you realize that certain things, good and bad, happen to you and not others and visa versa.
If you talk to anyone that is struggling, and who isn't including me, you find that there are several layers of issues, not just one……it’s almost as if there is some piling on going on here……for me this goes against my Life Physics…I’ve always landed on my feet and will again but how far do you have to fall?..... It gets scary.
Most of my life when things looked really bad it seemed as if I was standing in front of a train......but always pulled away at the last minute. So I’m waiting to get pulled from the train or have a soft landing…either way works but let’s move on!
You ever notice that when you have a mishap like losing luggage on a trip or a flat tire on the interstate that seems so stressful at the time and you're telling the story 2 weeks later and everyone, including you, is laughing? .......I find that to see the same humor earlier....or maybe even during the catastrophe it makes it easier......Try it!
I’ve never experienced the life I have right now and hope I never do again but I guess it's part of Life From Here!
It’s like the farmer said when his cow died….”Well, she never did that before!"
Please keep the Spiritual Energy and Prayers coming and hang in there..I'm going to! Bob
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