Life FRom Here # 34

The news is less than great! My PSA has gone up 30 points to 159. I say 30 points because I went in for labs on the 15th but I was unaware that they did a PSA test…..well they did and I found out today that it had gone from 112 to 129…...when I began the drug the PSA dropped 40 points in 2 ½ weeks! Now, it jumps this morning from 112 to 159! I guess the beast doesn’t have to worry about logic.

The Doc said let’s stay the course and check it again in 30 days. I said you don’t really think it’s going to go down do you? He said not really but you look great (he just said that cause I’m tan), you feel good and your weight (179) is good. I think you should enjoy another month before you start the chemo again.  I am where I am!

Speaking of which, there has been a lot of “9/11” stuff on TV this past week. It was interesting to hear stories of people that had a flat tire, their car wouldn’t start or they missed the bus to work that day. And some that were NOT supposed to be there that day…....but were.

I used to think about the concept of “in the wrong place at the wrong time”…….A friend of mine that was going off to war told me “I’m not afraid of a bullet that has my name on it,….it’s the one that says “to whom it may concern” that I’m worried about!

Then I realized that whether the situation is a tragic or a happy event.…..I think we’re always in the place where we’re supposed to be.
We’re all somewhere…every minute….Queen Elizabeth could be peeing right now!  I read once “the wrong place at the wrong time” is the devil and an Angel crossing paths……..OK......well…I’m an Angel too…(sometimes)………….and I’ve got my own Damn path!

So here we go…another battlefield and yep a different and Bigger sword….but let me make this perfectly clear!......I'm no where near giving up!           It’s just Life From Here.

I swear to God; there’s a small convenience store in Wadesboro, NC that I frequent on my way to the beach. They have great BBQ! Each time the front door opens, a woman’s voice comes over the loud speaker that says “Front door open!” and when it closes she says “Front door closed”..…each and every time….and it’s a busy place! But it gets even more bizarro…...They have a side door!!! “Side door open/Side door closed!”   The clerks told me they block it out…..…How?

Whoa! One of the known side effects of the new (now old) drug I’m taking is…”Strange or unusual dreams”! Well let me tell ya….strange and unusual doesn’t even come close….these are dreams that are so weird you don’t even want to tell anybody about them! AVITAR kind of dreams…..they’re not bad dreams…just weird…..I almost feel like I should make Popcorn!

My voice has been in a state of “Raspy” since I began treatment in ’09. Froggy sand Groggy I used to call it……Now it usually depends on the time of day or if I have nasal congestion.  Some days I’m just “Colt”….(that’s a little “hoarse” :>)......Anyway, the brighter side of this is that most receptionists, or secretaries that I call now…….know it’s me right away! If your name is Bill, Jim or Bob you know what I mean….you can never call some where and just say this is Bob calling…..Well which of the five hunnnnnndred Bobs that call here are you?........Not any more, now I call and say it’s Bob and they say “How are you?” or Hello Bob!……..it’s great! So, Jims, Bills and other Bobs out there….nana nana!

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I'm going to be OK!  Trust me on this one!

Please keep the Spiritual Energy and Prayers flowing...I sure am!  B.