Life From Here # 91

I'm back from my long weekend! My 30th Nadir weekend and my 91st Blog post. The anniversary of my first treatment was December 8, 2009......I thought about getting a Nadir tree, sending cards and exchanging gifts but…nah…too close to Christmas.

Well?.........is it better to get your ass kicked for a long weekend, once a month?……or is it better to feel 60-65% all the time?.......And 60-65% of…what? Not being able to remember the real normal makes it hard to compare…it’s like….comparing different bouts of the Flu, a year apart.
I haven’t quite figured it out myself. The effects of the new chemo Jevtana is of course the latter. One good thing, it’s not as dramatic as before, and after the long weekend I do feel a little better each day.

It’s only the 3rd treatment…...I just hope all of this is relevant when I see the numbers….If they go up again, I move back to Taxotere, and I don’t have a lot of faith that Taxotere alone is going to do the job. The next step…..should I choose to accept it….would be an older version of chemo….that’s your Grandfathers' chemo!....Talk about getting your ass kicked and looking like you just came out of a Will Smith movie!

I really miss the vivid dreams I used to have with Zitga, the oral drug I was taking…ya know, the ones I thought I should make popcorn for?
My sleep patterns have certainly changed through out the last 2 years.
In my prior life…BC (Before Chemo), As with eating; I never much liked to sleep either…it seems like such a waste of consciousness….I never understood the concept of someone “loving” to sleep…….How can you love to sleep when you’re not awake for it?.......That seems a little bizarro to me!

As we enter the Holidays (2011, good riddence), I know a lot of my good friends, some acquaintances, and some I just know through email, are going through some real challenging times right now!  As I hear about these challenges from my friends, they almost always seem to say......"Well, I feel funny complaining to you Bob".  Stop that!  My situation shouldn't deter from your very real situation nor from letting me listen (or read).....besides, it makes me feel as if you think "Can't complain to Bob, Hell, he's worse off than any of us!"....I don't think I want that distinction!  There's some serious shit going on out there right now!.....But, we're going to get through it!!!

The UN just agreed to another accord on climate change. I wrote about this last year but so I’m clear…..there seems to be little doubt that the earth is warming (so is Mars).…..as it has many times, long before we were around......To think that our “ant” size population and development has anything to do with global warming is like thinking that if you peed in the Ocean the water would rise!
I think Al Gore should be stripped of any awards he’s won and arrested for fraud......Did I leave any doubt on my position?

My next result and treatment…of whatever???? Is the 27th.

Thank you for the Spiritual thoughts and Prayers.

I wish each and every one of you the Joy of Christmas, Hanukah or whatever you celebrate this time of the year.  The New Year will be better!  Bob