My PSA has stayed the same...33.9....Bummer, but at least it didn’t go up and the last time it plateaued like this it dropped 20 points the next time. Unless it goes up next time my guess is that this will be my last treatment. The Doc really wanted me to quit now but I talked him into “staying the course”. I will wonder why I did that when this weekend comes along. He is concerned about my weight loss (only 24 lbs. over all but 14 in the last 6 months) and general health but he agreed that the symtoms of swollen ankles and hands and major fatigue were just not present in my case.
He still fails to understand that my goal is to “win” not “Tie”!
I will probably have to bite the bullet and get my slacks altered though…..every time I try to put my shirt tail in my pants drop to my ankles!
Well I’m here in the chemo room “Getting’ the Goods” so I will be “Froggy & Groggy” today and tomorrow.
My voice continues to be raspy and a couple of octaves high or low depending on where I am in the cycle….it has been like that since February….it dawned on me that there are people I have just recently met that have never heard my real voice! But Hey!....I can do a great Joe Cocker/Louie Armstrong impersonation!
The nurses in this practice are all saints, the ones who work the chemo room are true angels…they are on the front line and have to deal with the suffering and pain they see 8 hours a day (and my bad jokes) and still maintain a cheerful attitude. As much as I would love to be here in their position...versus mine; I just couldn’t do it! I’m so thankful that they can.
When I’m in NADIR, the weekend that is the lowest point, I watch a lot of TV. I wrote an entire post on some of the more bizzaro commercials; Gordon Liddy selling gold and such……The other day I was watching a Lunesta commercial….it’s a prescription sleeping aid. At the bottom of the screen I saw a quick line that said “How Lunesta actually works is unknown”……Huh?......They don’t know?
One last thing: have you ever heard someone say " my cancer has come back"? Well it's not MY cancer...it's a body invader and I intend to kill it!
Please keep the Spiritual thoughts and Prayers coming. I always get uneasy when there is no movement….what is that devil thinking? Has it put on the brakes, catching its’ breath and planning a move up or will it drop 20 points next time like before. Your Prayers and Spiritual energy along with my Attitude are my best weapons! Stay tuned. B.
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