Well, my PSA went up 10 points to 42. According to protocol if my PSA rises more than 25% (which this is) 2 times in a row then it’s off the clinical trial and back to the Taxotere. You may or not recall it did that the first time after I went off the Taxotere but after a 2nd test it turned out to be only a 3 point rise, one day later.
I had them do another test to see what the real number is. It’s still 42…..so if I go back on the hard core chemo or not is dependent on these numbers plus the onerous “Scans”.
On chemo, off chemo…I asked the Doc “Is this going to be my life?.....for the rest of my life?” He never really answered. Same guy said “There is no cure" and "You'll never reach a 0 PSA”…but then..…What does he know.......and he’s been wrong about me before.
Right now I’m just sittin’ here “Gettin’ the Goods”......Again! If the trial drug has side effects, as before; I won’t have any appetite, my fatigue level will increase and of course the ever popular…”Hoof & and and Mouth”!
Soooo….other than the usual side effects……I’m Good!
I really can’t complain (well I guess I could but what good would it do?)
As I’ve said before I have a 10-year plan.
I’ve said a lot times in these posts that I don’t believe this cancer is what's going to kill me….so if I get hit by a truck everybody will go “well, he did say”!
There is a web site called Caring Bridge and it host blogs from 100’s if not 1,000’s of cancer and other dangerous disease patients. Most are tough to read and some of them are friends I’ve met in the chemo room. Some are very sad.
Anyway my point is they all get words of encouragement and more than not they mention Bravery…I get those as well and they're always appreciated.....But I’m sure they, like me, have those middle nights when you wake up in sheer terror…..makes you want to get into a fetal position and try to make it go away…...but it won’t…….so what else can you do but fight….and fight to win!
I may be the only guy who didn’t realize this but it seems everything runs in cycles….the earth is round, solar systems, galaxies all go in circles, seasons, birds’ nests, chemo treatments….all cycles. There don’t seem to be any squares in nature….Bees have honeycombs but they’re in something round. A lot of my side effects are the same as pregnancy, and here I am in a 3 week cycle…….in addition to everything else....I hope I’m not turning into a girl!
Bless you all and thank you for the Spiritual Energy and Prayers! Bob
Another great heart on your sleeve post that makes us all wish we could do more to help. U keep hangin tough and we will keep sending positive vibes. That picture should be the book cover
ReplyDeleteI agree. I think Larry and I would help you get it published. Bob C
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